I am realizing that I have done absolutely nothing in my life that means anything or is worth anything. I have never truly lived at all… Nothing I say or do has any effect on anybody The world has never cared that Mary Elizabeth Brennan even exists… I do not know how I have made it to the age I am without impacting anyone… I look back at my life and all I can see is that I have been utterly alone for most of it. Awake nights with nobody to talk to… Life has no meaning or purpose for me, I have nowhere to go, nowhere I absolutely NEED to be where people would miss my presence if I were not there… NOTHING!! I am NOTHING!!